Hmm

you ever felt kinda like... your friends love you but.. if given a choice between you and someone else, you would be the discarded friend.

I'm not sure if its just me being insecure or what it is. There's this problem i have with my two BFF's that i hang with a lot. One is extremely.. EXTREMELY..spoiled, we'll call her "R" and can be rather selfish and likes to hog our BFF..er we'll call her "G" lol--no the letters have nothing to do with the names-- and im not one to care about that cuz like.. who cares who spends more time with who. but R cares.. if i hang out with G one on one, R gets mad. Then G gives in to R because she doesn't want to risk their friendship and knows i wont get mad.

Along with that.. they always complain how i dont see them.. or atleast G complains.. then when im off... they never hang out with me unless it is going to benefit them.

Now dont get me wrong, i love them, but i truly feel like because im so easy going, they dont think twice about hurting my feelings. I feel like im only around to drive them places. It really hurts me and i know if i mentioned this they'd say im crazy and would be kinda hurt. But its true, i make plans with them and they avoid them... they make plans with me.. when it involves driving .. or a way in which im semi left out. It's never anything that i want to do. I dont want to come off like im needy or selfish. its just i dont see why i am ALWAYS the one pushed around. I dont see how my BFFs can do that to me anyway..

I dont know maybe i'm just seeing it like that.. Maybe it's just because i've had it happen plenty of times before. But whatever it is.. it needs to be fixed...

I believe the biggest problem is R.. but i dont know and i dont want to place all the blame on her. It's everyones fault. Mine for letting it happen, G for not speaking her opinion, R for being selfish..

Idk.. they arent the only ones that do it either but it bugs me the most coming from them. blahhh any way.. i have ANOTHER blog to write..