Sunday, October 28, 2007

Hmm

you ever felt kinda like... your friends love you but.. if given a choice between you and someone else, you would be the discarded friend.

I'm not sure if its just me being insecure or what it is. There's this problem i have with my two BFF's that i hang with a lot. One is extremely.. EXTREMELY..spoiled, we'll call her "R" and can be rather selfish and likes to hog our BFF..er we'll call her "G" lol--no the letters have nothing to do with the names-- and im not one to care about that cuz like.. who cares who spends more time with who. but R cares.. if i hang out with G one on one, R gets mad. Then G gives in to R because she doesn't want to risk their friendship and knows i wont get mad.

Along with that.. they always complain how i dont see them.. or atleast G complains.. then when im off... they never hang out with me unless it is going to benefit them.

Now dont get me wrong, i love them, but i truly feel like because im so easy going, they dont think twice about hurting my feelings. I feel like im only around to drive them places. It really hurts me and i know if i mentioned this they'd say im crazy and would be kinda hurt. But its true, i make plans with them and they avoid them... they make plans with me.. when it involves driving .. or a way in which im semi left out. It's never anything that i want to do. I dont want to come off like im needy or selfish. its just i dont see why i am ALWAYS the one pushed around. I dont see how my BFFs can do that to me anyway..

I dont know maybe i'm just seeing it like that.. Maybe it's just because i've had it happen plenty of times before. But whatever it is.. it needs to be fixed...

I believe the biggest problem is R.. but i dont know and i dont want to place all the blame on her. It's everyones fault. Mine for letting it happen, G for not speaking her opinion, R for being selfish..

Idk.. they arent the only ones that do it either but it bugs me the most coming from them. blahhh any way.. i have ANOTHER blog to write..

1 comment:

Austin said...

Thanks for the comment regarding the "myspace friends" and other stuff. Yeah I think you're right in that it's different when you're in person...

but anywho, this is a good blog. I've felt this way before, it's frustrating, but as long as you put up with them and try to be there when you can, they'll soon realize how valuable you are.