So..

I'm feeling as though my blogs are rather "Emo", I never really noticed how often I release my frustrations through Blog Sites. I like blogging much more than diaries, I get to chose who see's it and who doesn't..whereas anyone can just find my diaries and read them. Anyway.. I'm completely digressing off subject. I have some more emoness to disperse on my readers =)..

Why does life always throw the biggest rocks at you all at once? Struggles don't come one at a time, they come in multitudes unimaginable. Yea I know, it's an age old question, but I still feel the need to ask it. I just feel so overwhelmed right now, and half of what is overwhelming me, isn't even my own problems (i.e. friends problems or strangers problems that i feel concerned with). Everything always crashes down at once. I know many have it worse, I know everyone goes through this, and I know there is a reason for it...but still. Though things seem to be getting a bit better:
The kitchen light that feel is now, thankfully, up again without any need to rewire. Our plumbing is fixed, my brother has surpassed his hemorrhagic problems. Along with the good there is still other problems that arise:
Im sick
Brothers medical bills
Dad's side of family is falling apart
My neighbor --who recently lost her husband-- lost her dog
Sam Spade lost her life
2 of my friends have very sick grandparents
etc etc.
All of this is from late october- now.

I think everyone could use some prayers.

My senior year is nothing compared to my junior year. I sure hope it gets better.

On a happier note..its almost thanksgiving =) yay! then comes christmas =)

Why..

does it seem that I am the only one who thinks the way I do?? Seriously, I seem to be the only one out of anyone I know.. that doesn't get aggravated over such little things (i.e. a teacher telling you to be quiet). In fact i rarely get mad at all. I get upset but not really mad. Another thing I wonder.. is why, does it seem everyone is so judgemental? Like.. to me.. people are people.. I've never seen anyone as anything different.. along with that.. i see everyone as beautiful, be if physical, through action, or both.. While it seems my friends.. dont think that way. Now i can't say im not judgemental, because I am. Everyone is to some extent. But... i dont know, like a good example of what i was saying before would be when i was working, This young guy and and young girl came in (both around 19-25 in age) Well when they walked out, one of our baggers (referring to the couple) made the comment "I hate it when guys are too pretty for their girl friends", I found that disturbing.. For 1, everyone judges differently, to her the girl could be "ugly" (i DO NOT use that word i think it is pointless when describing a person, no one is ugly, we all see things differently) while to him she is beyond beautiful. Second, He's the one dating her, not our bagger. Third, the girl wasn't dressed up so she didnt see her full potential, though i thought she was really pretty and they made a cute couple. I think that comment was made out of jealously since she thought the guy was attractive. I (out of 4 people) was the only one to feel this way. lol I just see no point in judging someones attractiveness when it is of no use or matter to you.
eh.. any opinions?