Every blade of grass differs, who is to say which is greener?

Everyone loves the pursuit. The chase.

It's a rush, knowing you may achieve something new and exciting.

But why, WHY does that change for some people once they get what they want? How do you go from complete dedication to lack there of?

I feel as though people are never satisfied; no matter how good some have it, they still want more--which leads to narcissitic actions and constant dissatisfaction/competition/envy.

You begin to want more, you neglect what you already have..

Take life in stride, appreciate what you have...be humbled by what you've been graced with, including both possessions and people within your life.

A competent and self-confident person is incapable of jealousy in anything. Jealousy is invariably a symptom of neurotic insecurity. Robert A. Heinlein

A fresh start

The pins are out. The tethers are unbound.

I took all the damage I could take; it's over now and I feel great. In the light of this new happiness I feel as though I am on the path to the restoration of my old self.

I've realized what the term 'Love hurts' means, or at least what it means to me. Love hurts when it's not returned. Love hurts when you give it and the receiver doesn't think it's enough. Love hurts because it's what everyone wants, but not everyone receives.

I realized that the good I was doing in my past relationship was not enough for him or I to be satisfied. I realized that I had the short end of the stick for a while and that I was no longer in love with him, rather the idea of having someone love me. He decided he was going different places than I. He decided that the relationship had major issues. He realized he wasn't treating me well. We realized we both have things to work on. We decided to deviate from each others life destinations, but still stay within walking distance of each others paths. Friends at long last.

I've stumbled across a new relationship and it feels great. It's the first time in YEARS that someone has honestly put effort into building a stronger relationship with me, get to know me, or even listen to me.

I finally feel worth the fight to someone else. It's a great feeling--to love and be loved. No manipulations, no insults; support and communication!

I lost myself along the way in the past and now I've finally got the motivation to become everything I once was and then some:).

It still hurts. Hurts to know that no matter what I did...no matter how hard I tried... I'd not earn your respect. Your effort. Your attention. You became what I told you was my biggest fear. You did exactly what you said you'd never do. Time together, for me, was really just time alone.

Now I am free. It took only a second for me to earn what was never achievable with you, through another. Irony.

Thankfully, we both have learned from this experience. No regrets. Everything happens for a reason--what I suffered through, furthered you--and for all that you did for me, for everything you tolerated in the beginning, for the past you helped me let go...I am furthered and forever thankful.

I hope you can find what I've found. I'd say I've got 'The Best' right now...I wish the same to you.