A fresh start

The pins are out. The tethers are unbound.

I took all the damage I could take; it's over now and I feel great. In the light of this new happiness I feel as though I am on the path to the restoration of my old self.

I've realized what the term 'Love hurts' means, or at least what it means to me. Love hurts when it's not returned. Love hurts when you give it and the receiver doesn't think it's enough. Love hurts because it's what everyone wants, but not everyone receives.

I realized that the good I was doing in my past relationship was not enough for him or I to be satisfied. I realized that I had the short end of the stick for a while and that I was no longer in love with him, rather the idea of having someone love me. He decided he was going different places than I. He decided that the relationship had major issues. He realized he wasn't treating me well. We realized we both have things to work on. We decided to deviate from each others life destinations, but still stay within walking distance of each others paths. Friends at long last.

I've stumbled across a new relationship and it feels great. It's the first time in YEARS that someone has honestly put effort into building a stronger relationship with me, get to know me, or even listen to me.

I finally feel worth the fight to someone else. It's a great feeling--to love and be loved. No manipulations, no insults; support and communication!

I lost myself along the way in the past and now I've finally got the motivation to become everything I once was and then some:).