Okay

Everything is okay (I'm sorry for my massively bi-polar blogs.) I think last week I fell into a temporary depression because of some of the past that had recently been brought up, that along with the stress of school, Christmas, work, family trouble, and some guy trouble too. I'm feeling great this week, or at least today I am! I think it's because today has been the first "STRESS FREE-NOTHING TO DO BUT DO WHAT I WANT" day, I've had in a long time. I finished all my school work except 1 thing, which isn't due til wednesday.

Anyway, on with my blogage =)

Recently, at my youth group, the topic of confession has been readily discussed. I began to wonder if all those acts of confession ever weigh on their conscience. They may not have done those sins, and yea those who committed them were sorry, but knowing all those peoples faults..I don't know, you'd think that'd get to a person eventually, you're not only keeping your faults in mind but others. Then again I could be wrong, maybe priests don't think of them at all because the sins are forgiven. I don't know, it's just something to ponder.

Today, I realized (again, as I do everyday) that all girls do.. is GOSSIP. I hate it. I try to stop it, or ignore it, but it's rather hard when it's about someone you know. For example: I have a "friend" whitney (she's a friend but we have our differences), and she has claimed she is pregnant. I never questioned her about it, but there was reason to doubt her because she claimed that before 2 other times. I figured it was true about the miscarriages or that she just wanted attention and either way I didn't care. The only objection I ever had was that she was sleeping around. Anyway, every girl at my table was complaining that whitney must be lying because blah blah blah, and how she's so stupid and how if she was pregnant she'd be stupid for wanting to be pregnant and how she doesn't look pregnant cuz blah blah. Why.. tell me WHY would it matter to them if it is not them? Why should they care what she does with her life if it is not effecting them, unless they are worried for her, which they clearly are not. I for one believe whitney. I see her everyday. I eat lunch with her, she walks different, she's gained weight, she has a due date, and she's switching schools because Holmes has a daycare. If she's lying then thats her own fault. I obviously hope she isn't lying but other than that I don't care, but it's not right to start putting down someone when you don't know facts. They question her ability as a mother.. blah blah it bugs me.

What really got me thinking of this was something a a fryer said while I was on a retreat. He said "last night I was praying for a girl, a young woman who has lost her way. She's troubled and needs help. You know who that young woman is? Britney Spears (at this remark there was faint laughter). Don't laugh, why do you laugh? She is a child of God. We are all children of God. She was not "crazy" before, I hate seeing what Hollywood and wealth has done to her. How badly fame can corrupt someone. Don't you all see that we are all children of God..." He continued on. His speech really struck me because it's true. We all start out good, it's society that gets to us. I for one have never liked gossip and I find it pointless to poke fun at someone you know nothing about, you don't know what they are going through no matter how close you are to them. So don't try to claim you do. We are all equal and can all go down the wrong path, we don't need extra baggage like rumors to burden us more.

yea thats my little tidbit. I need to go, otherwise I'll be dead at school lol.

goodnight